Last night was absolutely amazing.

I WATCHED REPO THE GENETIC OPERA OMFG!!!!

I STUFFED MY FAT FUCKING FACE BUT WHATEVER!
I MET THE DIRECTOR OF REPO/SAW AND TERRANCE WHO PLAYS THE GRAVE ROBBER
THEY SIGNED MY CELLPHONE
AND I GOT A PICTURE WITH THEM
OMFG.
IT WAS AMAZING.
LKDSFLKSDMFDSLK Geeeezzz it's the best movie ever.
go.
go look it up
Also here's a new video I made ABOUT repo. basically just me rambling

http://www.youtube.com/user/Rayne8791



 

Did fairly well today.
Still purged though.
DAMNIT ALL!!!
I've been in a much better mood lately though.
I enjoy making videos now.
http://www.youtube.com/user/Rayne8791

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So yeaaa.
I made a video.
Cuz I have no life.
It's lame.
And my face looks fat.
hahahaalmkdglkdsf/

;ldlkfmlkdsfkdslkmfmlkdgfd
Ew.
Ew.
Ew.
I pigged out again.
Wtf.
I hate myself.
mlkdgkdmlkfs
Why can't I just be naturally thin.
People say I'm sooo tiny.
But I can't see it. It's not there at all.
All I see is room for improvement.
GAHHH
I just want to be good enough for myself.
I want to be perfect.
But I'll never get there.
So why try?
Because I suck. That's why.
I keep heading towards this unreachable goal.
I can't stop and won't stop.
I feel the need to prove something to everyone.
But I'm not sure what it is yet.
But I have to.

I'm
So.
Damn.
Tired.


fdgfdslklmksmgd
Fuck this.

fdmlkglkfd
gah.
I have eaten
literally
over 3000 cals today.
what the hell.
omg.
i hate myself.
jesus fucking christ.
someone please just kill me now.
This isnt fair.
i hate thinking about this every single day of my life.
i want to be free of it.
but i cling to it.
i need it.
or i'll go crazy.
this is all i have that makes sense.
even though that sounds so pathetic.
GAH.
Food is basically all i think about =/
it sickens me.
bleghlgdlkmlks
i am such a fat cow.
why cant i be weightless.
it owuld make stuff easier.

hah today some of my friends noticed that my eyes were becoming a yellow tint.
They were like "uh oh liver failure"
it made me so fucking ecstatic.
I want to look as sick as possible.
Then i'll be satisfied.

ew
ew
ew
ew
i need to purge.
But my gag reflex sucks.
so i never can.
god fucking damnit.
this pisses me off.
I need more control.
I don't need food.
I just need happiness.
And food does not bring happiness.
At all.

klfmglfd

Hello.

Omg today was actually kind of okay-ish.
In advisory I found out I got a...96 ON MY CHEMISTRY TEST! bahahaha. I felt so awesome.
And I got my progress report:
Communications Applications: 76
Chemistry: 79
French III: 62
US History: 80

GR WHY FRENCH WHY!!! Eh French III isn't required anyways. I don't careeeee.
Blehhhhhhdsfd,mbarf.

I was sitting on my bus today and this chick gets on, looks at me, and says "WHO'S THAT UGLY GIRL IN MY SEAT??!!"
Wow thank you bitch.
Thank you for killing my already low self esteem.
I hate the bus.
The people on it suck to the extreme.

I want to see my boyfriendddddddd =/
I might get to see him on Friday though YAY!
Gah he's the best thing since sliced bread.
I've been going out with him for almost 6 months and we still haven't done anything sexual.
This makes me soooooo happyyyyyy!
All of that stuff makes me feel gross about myself and upsets me.
I'm glad he's actually respecting me unlike my old boyfriends.
lkdfmlkgdlks Last Tuesday he told me he loved me for the first time EVER.
It was so cutee lkfdlkgd
Oh jesus I'm acting all girly and odd. XD DAMNITTT.
I just really like him.
But he's so much skinnier than meeee!
RAWR! I'm always playing with his shoulder bladesssss
ahh SEXY!